Don't Wreck Your Head

Sad

We are leaving St. Kitts tomorrow. Well, Eric left yesterday because he had to get back to work, but the three of us leave tomorrow. I am so sad. I absolutely love it here. We ended up staying two extra days and I could stay a month longer. Usually when vacation time is up, I think most people are ready to go back. I know most times people need the "vacation from their vacation," but this one has been amazing. We have just been resting and swimming and riding jet ski's and drinking fruity boozy drinks and napping and just loving each other and our time here. I'm sad it's over. Really sad.

My parents fly in from Puerto Rico tomorrow until Monday and then Eric's parents come on Tuesday for a week. Then, my brother (and hopefully his wife and kiddos) is going to come on the 4th for a few days. Then, we leave to go to Florida for a month. It's going to be a busy next few months. :)

For my Hubby

Babe, I miss you so much....

Al Green
Let's Stay Together

I, I'm so in love with you
Whatever you want to do
Is all right with me
'Cause you make me feel so brand new
And I want to spend my life with you

Since, since we've been together
Loving you forever
Is what I need
Let me be the one you come running to
I'll never be untrue

Let's, let's stay together
Lovin' you whether, whether
Times are good or bad, happy or sad

Whether times are good or bad, happy or sad

Why, why some people break up
Then turn around and make up
I just can't see
You'd never do that to me (would you, baby)
Staying around you is all I see
(Here's what I want us to do)

[Repeat to fade:]
Let's, we oughta stay together
Loving you whether, whether
Times are good or bad, happy or sad

R.I.P Scott

David "Scott" Gambrell
SCOTT GAMBRELL ROCKLEDGE David "Scott" Gambrell, 34, of Rockledge, FL, passed away Saturday, April 19, 2008, at Wuesthoff Med ical Center. Scott was born in Spartanburg, South Carolina. He was a Registered Nurse with the Melbourne Kidney Center. Scott is survived by his wife, Beth; their two children, Joshua and Jessica; his father, William (Susan) Gambrell; mother, Sally Carroll; and four sisters, Dana Carroll, Sandi Reid, Maggie Gambrell , and Margaret Courter. Friends will be received on Thursday, April 24, 2008 from 6 to 8 p.m., at Beckman- Williamson Funeral Home, 5400 Village Drive, Viera, FL. A memorial service will be held on Friday, April 25, 2008 at 10 a.m., at the Church at Viera, 9005 North Wickham Road, Melbourne, FL. Inurnment will be held at Florida Memorial Gardens, Rockledge. You may sign Scotts guest book at: www.beckmanwilliam son.com

Comfrot and relief for me and my girl

Hazel had a doctors appointment today. She goes to an amazing pediatrician in Dallas. Seriously. She is phenom. She also isn't taking any more patients and is the "one" to go to apparently. I had NO idea when I researched her. I just wanted to go to someone who would be ok with not vaccinating Jagger and slowly vaccinating Hazel and the future kidlets. (gasp, yes, I will be vaccinating Hazel and most likely the next kiddo. Shocking, I know) We drive 35 minutes away to see her.

Hazel has not been in for an appointment since she had RSV in December. I just hate exposing her to germs and she is fine.  Unless she is sick, I don't need well visits. I understand them and am totally supportive of them, but for me, unless I am vaccinating on schedule, they aren't in our cards.

I took her in today because we started her on solids a few days ago. She is seven months and she is finally acting like she is ready. So we started some oatmeal last wed. and an hour after she ate it? Well, she started puking and decided she liked it so much that she would do it for five more hours. Seriously, seeing a baby dry heave is sad but (after the fact) it's also kind of funny. (should I have said that?)

We are in the office today and her nurse, Kelly btw, tells me to remove her clothes and we weigh and measure and touch and poke and kiss and coo at her. Hazel responds by giggling and cackling the whole time. Kelly says, "She is such a happy, pudgy baby." Yes, yes she is. And seriously, people, you have no idea. The kid laughs all day long.

Kelly leaves and Hazel gets noodgy and I know she is hungry. I pop her on the boob for a bit. She is just in her diaper and nursing when Dr. Kennedy walks in. She looks at me and then Hazel and says, "that is one fat baby." I start laughing and say, "yes she is." What else do you say to that?  I get her up on the table and Dr. Kennedy starts laughing again and commenting on her rolls and her giggling and her smile and her blue eyes and the size of her thighs.

She looks over the measurements that Kelly took and says, "Well, we know two things."

1. She is really, really, fat.
2. She is really short.

:)

Then she says to me, what would you like to do about her vaccines. I looked at her, paused for a moment, and then I said, "Listen, you know our situation. You also know that I know what my head knowledge says.  It says vaccines are ok. Even the recent case where it says the vaccines caused the autism doesn't freak me out. I know that the little kid had other issues and that all those things come into play. You know, I know, that most of the times things are ok, but I am just scared. Hazel is the most happy baby I have ever seen and it absolutely terrifies me to think that these vaccines could harm her. I also know from the recent research that delaying vaccines can delay asthma. Since I have it, genetically she could be predisposed. Also, since she had RSV she is at a higher risk for it. Help me out here."

Her response? Almost all the kids who have had problems? They have had issues from day one. They haven't been babies who have developed typically (note she didn't use "normal". Made me smile), they have been needy, criers, irritable, not meeting goals, etc. Hazel has had ZERO problems. Let's start slow." I don't know how true this is and it's something to read up on. Is there a tie? It would be awesome to see.

Hazel (I absolutely love her name so much still) had DTAP at 4 months because pertussis scares the ever living crap out of me and that is the month they say is ok to reduce the asthma risk. Today she also received her Prevnar and polio. Especially because we are going to a third-world country Wednesday, she needed to be protected from the scary stuff. I asked her about MMR and if it was necessary for St. Kitts and she excused herself to look it up. She came back and said no. We could do it when we got back. How awesome is she!

We got the shots and then Hazel and I met a friend for lunch. We are now home and she is passed out next to me. I know it's her shot. She doesn't ever sleep during the day as hard as she is right now. I gave her Tylenol right before the shots and some Motrin after lunch. 

Hazel Elvie is my sweet, sweet relief. I love her more than I could ever put to words. Her smiles, her laughs, the peace that surrounds her. All of these things remind me that God does exist and he knows what we can handle and what we need.

Herrings walk away......

Ok, I am still so angry I could spit, but whatever.

This afternoon I was in Target with Jagger and Hazel getting snacks for after the game for Jagger's T-ball team. We are walking down the main aisle in the back of the store near the books when I see a little girl get hit with the cart by another boy she is with (by accident) which causes her to trip over her feet and fall on the ground. The boy she is with is giving her a hard time about getting up and she does. Well, her dad (?) says her name and asks her what the "hell" she is doing. She replies that she fell and he response in a very nasty tone, "no you didn't, get over here." Well, since I saw what I happened, I said (totally nonchalantly by the way as I was walking by) "Oh no, she really did trip." I thought that he thought she was messing around and I just wanted him to know that she wasn't. If I was in his shoes and I thought Jagger was getting into things and someone said the same thing to me, I would have said, "Oh, ok, sorry buddy" to Jagger. No big deal. It WASN'T a big deal when I said it. It was in passing.

So, as we are still walking through his crowd of kids, ( There were like 11 or 12 kids, all of different ethnicity, so he either adopted them or he is fostering them. It didn't matter to me at the immediate moment, but later it did.) He says to me loudly, "why don't you mind your fucking business. WHAT? I was so not butting in. It really was not a big deal the way i said it. "Oh no, she really did trip." That was it. Believe me, I am the last person to get involved because of the situations I have been in with Jagger. Situations where people have said something to me and not known what was going on. So I looked at him and asked him what he said. He said it again. Now, I have Jagger and Hazel with me. Hazel is just sitting in the cart laughing like she always is, but Jagger got visibly upset immediately. I told him I was sorry and didn't mean to butt in. He starts shouting and calling me a cunt and a fucking bitch and laughing and pointing at me. What? It was so surreal. Then he called all his kids over and said, "look at this bitch. She thinks she is better than us." I saw this was getting really out of hand fast and told the guy, "you will not talk to me this way" and I grabbed Jagger's hand and just walked away. A lady asked me if I was ok and what had happened. I explained it to her really fast in passing as I just wanted to get away from him. He was yelling and shouting obscenities at me as I am walking away with my kids! Seriously, I am on one end of the store and he is almost on the other end screaming.

Now, I don't back down. EVER. It's used to be kind of a problem when I was younger lol. I would rather risk a punch to the face then back down from someone who was trying to intimidate me. I had the kids with me and the first thought in my head was "this could be a learning lesson so keep your trap shut." As we were walking away I am explaining to Jagger that sometimes people are very very mean, but we are Herrings and Herrings stick up for themselves, but we also walk away from people who are out of control. I hope I was able to get across the fact that this guy was miserable and taking his sadness out on someone else made him feel better.

We finish our shopping and are walking to the front of the store to check out. Jagger sees the guy and tells me, " mom, that really sad guy is there with his kids." Now, If you have ever been in a super Target, you know the checkout aisle is sooo long. We are on the last register on one side and he is on the 3rd to last on the the other side. I wasn't going to let him dictate where we checked out at so I went to the aisle with the least amount of people like I always would. Well, it was the one next to him. I didn't think he would continue his nastiness but I was wrong. As we are walking up, he shouts, "Oh look, it's mom of the year. look at her. She's so awesome. I wish I could be just like her." then he looks at the kids and says, "what a fucking bitch." My blood is BOILING. You have no idea, but I kept thinking "Jagger, Jagger, Jagger" and it kept me in line. People are looking at us and everything. So, they are about to leave and he has all the kids line up at the end of our register and say, "Goodbye mom of the year, you fucking cunt. WHAT???

Jagger is staring at me and I am ready to claw this guys eyes out for disrespecting me and my family. i just looked at the little girl who tripped and smiled and then turned away. There was nothing I could do. If I tried to defend myself it would have been a huge confrontation. This guy was so over the top that it was ridiculous.

When we left and were driving to Jagger's game I tried to really get across to him that people can be mean and it's because they are really sad inside. When they are sad inside it makes them feel better to be mean to someone else. We talked about all different instances when people could be this way.

This whole thing was absolutely over the top insane, but I hope, and pray, that I was able to show Jagger that I respected myself and that it was ok to keep your mouth shut. that guy looked like such and ***. Jagger noticed it also because the lady at the register and someone else when we left said the guy was an assho..le. and a jerk.

I hope I did the right thing. I will say though that my blood is boiling and all I wanted to say to those kids was" respect yourselves and don't ever let anyone treat you the way this man is." I also wanted to scoop those girls up and tell them that they should never let a man treat them the way this guy treated women." UGH!

OOOOOOHHHHH

Mastitis! Holy cow is all I can say!

2 things

1. I am addicted to diet soda again.

2. I am equally addicted to Reno 911.

Brother

My brother is finally putting his pics online.....enjoy...they're awesome.

Hazel

 

Maybe it's what she will dance with her Daddy to at her wedding.

Artist - Bob Dylan

Album - Planet Waves

Lyrics - Hazel

Hazel, dirty blonde hair

I wouldn't be ashamed to be seen with you anywhere
You got something I want plenty of
Ooh, a little touch of your love.

Hazel, stardust in your eye
You're going somewhere and so am I
I'd give you the sky high above
Ooh, for a touch of your love.

Oh no, I don't need any reminder
To know how much I really care
But it's just making me blinder and blinder
Because I am up on the hill and still you're not there.

Hazel, you called and I came
Now don't make me play this waiting game
You've got something I want plenty of
Ooh, a little touch of your love.

Bob Dylan, Hazel - Unpluged Rehearsals 1994-11-17 New York

Nice

Jagger just now walked up to me and said, "look at my water that I am going to drink."

I looked at his "water" and it was a bottle of Astroglide.

We are awesome parents.